Deonthenotsomighty

This is a post you would have read it somewhere or told by someone upteen times.

But, no doubt, it is true.
About girls.

stolen from dawn dearest’s blog.
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No.

It’s always a NO.

Even when we’re dying to say YES.

We say NO.

“Are u unhappy?”

“NO.”

“Are u angry?“

“NO.”

“Are u crying alrdy??“

“NO!”

“But u sound like u are…“

“No… I said no no no!“

And so the century-old question:

“How come u women always say NO, even when u actually mean YES?”

Let me TRY to unravel this mystery of the female specie…

Here’s 2 possible reasons y we say NO when we wholeheartedly meant YES:

1) We are logical beings (too).

We love to be pampered, fussed abt and cared for.

We love it when u treat us like a princesses.

We love it when u give in to our every request.

We love it when u appear next to us everytime we need u.

We love it when u appear everytime we miss u.

We love it when u surprise us with ur presence.

We love it when u bother to snail-mail.

We love it when u give us flowers (even though we ALWAYS say it’s a waste of money).

BUT

Even though we (day) dream alot, we still think with logic.

And we noe the diff b/w wad the heart’s tellin us and wad the mind’s telling us…

Scenario 1:

You ask: “Do u wan me to accompany you? It’s ok, I can just let my frens know that I’m not gng w them for our……”

Heart says: “YES! I wan u to accompany me, whole day.”

Mind says: “If i say yes, u’ll probably think i’m being selfish and demanding…”

So We say: “NO, nevermind, go ahead w ur plans…”

Scenerio 2:

You ask: “Are you unhappy with me?”

Heart says: “Hell YES! And I’m pretty sure u can tell without even asking.”

Mind says: “It’s really no big deal.. to him at least… so dun kick a big fuss and cry over it… I’ll be the one to end up w the ugly puffy eyes anyway…”

So We say: “NO. Not really… just… PMSing…” (and so we’re ALWAYS PMS-ing…)

The other explanation:

2) The FEMALE ego

Yes. Forget abt ur male ego.

We have ours too, in case u guys din realise…

As mentioned b4, we love all the sweet, rosy, lovey-dovey things…

BUT

This is really the era of Independent Women.

We noe we CAN depend on ourselves…

and are capable of taking care of ourselves…

And we kinda dislike showing u guys our weak side.

Coz we noe we’re not weak.
And we dun like u to think so either.

So this is wad happen when u try to offer help by asking:

Senerio 1:

You ask: “Do u need me to send you back?”

Heart says: “YES! that’ll be really nice…”

Ego says: “I’m capable of gng back myself. I really dun NEED to trouble u.”

We say: “NO thanks… I can go home myself…”

Senerio 2:

You ask: “Do u need me to carry this for u?”

Heart says: “YES… my hand is at the verge of breaking cant u see?”

Ego says: “I rather break my arm den admit that i NEED u to help me…”

We say: “NO need lah.. not very heavy wad…”

Then again…

I’m just simplifying this whole explanation with 2 possible reasons…

Dun assume dat women are really DAT simple.

We’re not.

And I can tell u…

We’re PROUD of it

Coz the Men Dun Geddit.

*S’times if u’re truly sincere abt sth, take it from NIKE, dun ask - Just DO It.

Akira kurosawa
For people who doesnt know who he is, Akira kurosawa (黑泽明) 1910-1998
was a renowned japanese director worldwide. 
His work dates back to 1940s till the last film, 5 years before his death.

 I only got to know this man when my FYP project last year requires us to construct an exhibition installation for one of his movie. 
He was  a GREAT man, a GREAT artist and GREAT film maker.
He is one who truly put his heart and soul into film-making.
Read about him, Be inspired.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Akira_Kurosawa

 Akira Kurosawa’s film – Dreams (1990)
 

Just finish watching this film on Youtube (HMV sells the DVD @ close to 100bucks!). Awesome film I must say.
It is a movie made up of 8 dreams. Each dreams depicts different phase of his life and deliver different messages.

The first 2 dreams depicts the childhood times.

Sunshine through the rain
There is an old legend in Japan saying that fox spirits holds their wedding rituals during raining days and they will be unplease upon any people who sees it.
In the dream, the little boy defies the mother’s wish and went out to the orest during a rainy day. He witnessed the Fox wedding from beind a tree and unfortunately, was discovered by the foxes.
Notice the colours captured in this dream, it is all SOOO dream-like you won’t believe it is real(it is indeed real). Just a side-note, if you think the rainbow was added in by some editing programmes, you are totally wrong! The team waited at the place for (I don’t know how long) for the rainbow to appear!

The Blizzard
A dream about four mountaineers who encounter a snowstorm when they are on their way back to their camp. The team can no longer move on but the leader endeavors to struggle on through the storm.  Just before you thought they would all die in the snowstorm, the leader encountered something.
This talks about the struggle between life and death in an instance.

The tunnel
A commander from a japanese troop was just released from some prison and was on his way home when he pass through this tunnel. This is a heart-wrenching one .
after he came out of the tunnel, a dead private from his troops followed behind.
He wanted to know if he is really dead.
After him was a whole platoon(dead),
How devastated can the commander be, can you imagine?
Notice the clour on the dead’s face, they are of distinctive pale blue, Akira Kurosawa has his very own way of expressing things, you will realise it throughout the film, the film site, the sky, the clouds, the colours bla bla bla.

Crows
He dreamt of meeting Van Gogh in his paintings.
Very Van Gogh, featured the vibrant colours and scenery in his paintings. 

Mount Fuji in red
A large nuclear plant near mount fuji exploded and people are trying to escape by jumping into the sea. The only survivors struggled to live but only to realise they can never escape the fate of being killed by the radiation.
Notice the messages he is trying to portray. Some Global issues.

Weeping demon
A dream’s message is quite similar to the previous one. A man was wandering around a misty bleak mountainous region when he came across a demon-like man.
The “demon” the cries to him that he used to be a man and the barren land now used to be a beautiful village. Due to nuclear holocaust, everything has change and has changed the course of nature. Human start to grow horns, huge dandelions, wierd roses.
They turn to eat one another as there are nomore food for them.

Village of the watermills
The last dream of the film. A traveller came across a village with a watermill at every house. He then came to know that the people living here are living the ancient way, where there were no pollutions and everything is sourced from nature.
They celebrated upon death at a ripe old age as they believe that a proper end to a good life is joyous and not to be mourn about.
A very light hearted ending with a very important message.
The scenery in this dream is really beautiful, the water is crystal clear, the plants are lush…

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I don’t know the words to descibe how beautiful this film is. This is definitely one of my favourite show of AKira Kurosawa.
Everyone, please watch!

http://www.youtube.com/profile_videos?user=OrenjiStar&p=r

I am sorry I didnt turn up last minute.
I hope everyone’s fine, REALLY.
Dawn..I am worried about you, are you alright?
Wan Xin, hugs**…xin ku ni le.
Chaos meet up soon okayyy???!!!
I am really sorry!
Hugs!! I love ya’ll!!
And I miss all of you
alot alot alot.
muacs.

Happy Birthday to my dearest!!
I won’t mention how we spend our day together. Thats our secret…shhhh…

But, I hope I did gave him a HAPPY birthday.

This is my dear Goofy with the cookie i gave him on his birthday (instead of a cake).
Really hoped he like it.

May he be bless with the most wonderful things from now on.
Lovessss.

Sorry for being away for so long.
I was not busy.
My net wasnt down.
I was home.
But I didn’t update interesting things that i promised.
I was thinking thinking and thinking.

The decision of leaving was made long in September. But I was made to think and it took me 2 months. Then I finally decide after a month plus that I insist on leaving.
It wasnt as happy as it all along seemed.

People @ Mo-X (part 1- my beloved colleagues)
1st person:
I built a very good working rep-our with one of the colleague Ivy.
She thought me alot, she defended me when everyone look down on me, she made me who I am now, or at least made me a super fresh grad, haha.
My leaving hits her the most, and it hits me hard too.
Throughout the half a year, she became a sister to me, I mean an elder sis who is always there for me. WE are really good friends, more than colleagues, we have so much in common that people don’t understand.

Btw, People who only heard of her, this is Ivy—->

2nd person:
This is my best friend, NINI.
She was my polymate and she together with  mimi(also my bestie) worked together at mo-x.
I was seated between Ivy and her.
She was a kind soul, she feels that everyone anyone has a good heart, and she always tries to stand in their shoes. That includes contractor.
So, she get bullied by contractor easily. It worries me sometimes to see the naivness of her, but at the same time, i envy that. I hope i can be like her. I am way too defensive.
She is a very bubly friend, she will act bimbo and stupid just to make you happy, I laugh at them, but I know..she is doing it cause it make us happy.

Btw, this is beloved silly Nini.—>

3rd person:
Mimi Lucinda. Nini’s twin sister. She is the older one, the mother in the office, the ever-so -caring friend. She’s also my best friend. I know the term “bestfriends” sounds abit too much for many people nowadays, but the minis sisters are truly ones the they give their heart to be your BEST friend. On many occasions when I am sick or tempermental, she’s been very patient with me. Like her sister, she’s very positive. She is now back in Indonesia (I miss her hell loads…but i didnt tell her). She will be facing a kind of life very different from what she had here over then ten years, and I really hope something will bring her back.This is my beloved mimi.

 4th person:
Mr kenneth. haha. He was a very nice guy, a gentleman I would say. We girls always wondered whats going on in his mind. Sometimes we really hope we can load off some burden from him, he seems troubled even when he smiles lately.
This guy, has been a really caring one. He took care of all of us like younger sisters. He always makes sure we are safe, and will reach out to you when you are troubled. I really appreciated times when he accompanied the girls to stay, and stayed to talk to me to ease my mind. He will be a VERY good lecturer, i believe.this is him.

okay..I am ending the introduction here.

I didnt start off this entry wanting to talk about each of them,  but i did anyway. I miss them hell loads. I had been so attached to them for the past half a year. It wasnt as happy as I thought leaving there. I am sad leaving there. I miss everyone. And I face other problems. I wanted the break to clear my mind, to know what i want and also to accompany my family and friends. But it didnt work out the way I want, I became more troubled upon the loose of income suddenly. I couldnt sleep well and I don’t know if I want to go back.
The bosses have pleaded me to stay, they pleaded me and willing to let me have my way! Was I too harsh on them to leave without giving them a chance? I used to say this is a job, and a job can be elsewhr. I doubt the pleading, I thought it was just something they do to keep me so i could work for them. 
But am I happy leaving? this Qns eats me ever since the day I left.
I am still troubled.
Very.

我不快乐。
我不是我。

不快乐。

We had unhappy times.

but 

I know he loves me.
I know.

and

I love him too…
I hope he knows.

Collin Raye – love me
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
“Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma’s daddy didn’t like me none, but I loved your Grandma so.”

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don’t give up on me.
I’ll meet you when my chores are through;
I don’t know how long I’ll be.
But I’m not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I’d never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don’t give up on me.
I’ll meet you when my chores are through;
I don’t know how long I’ll be.
But I’m not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you.

Love, me.

I am so afraid of myself.
Whats wrong with me?

People,

stay away from me.