Deonthenotsomighty

我也常常以为，
下一个他会不一样。
但，
还是傻傻地信了一个又一个。
我，
不信了。

 蔷蔷

 好伤心的一首歌。
for  people out there who has a pet esp.

此时的我，
哭了。
回想过去，
好难过。

有些东西， 不会忘记，但也不想记得。
那是我一生中其一最大的遗憾。

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近来，我很烦躁，很多疑。
我想是在保护自己吧。
不想相信。
不想失去。
不想受伤。
不想……

不想让人看到我又多脆弱。

好沮丧。

13/09/07..mr jianzhi finally go NS.

 met up with him 2 days before he become botak…went to haji lane arab street JUST to try that yogurt drink that taste exactly like yakult…but but but now they change le not nice anymore… dumb el-shiek..XPPPPP

He was jealous that i look nice in this pic,

 so he attempt to look as emo too..

I  win still can!! hahaha..

hope army can really make him more man…and so far so good, he haven been whining yet…good good..

*things between us are more than just a blog post, but we both know ALWAYS. ))

Happy staying in tekong, see you when you are back mr jianz.

yesterday went to richard’s commission parade…CONGRATS!~!!!

We all know he waited soooo long for this day to come!! Happy for him!

I didnt manage to take many pics…all with mimi..will upload more when mimi pass them to me…
Guys seriously look damn good in uniforms, espacially white ones..lol

finally, they are both officer noww…. =)))

next week is his coms ball…and i haven slim down abit…shhhiiiittt…
and i predict my week to be crazily(i dun know if there is such a word) busy.

 :(

sob.

Leaves and shadow(with added contrast).
Cafe Domus at noon.

this is mimi in this last picture to end this entry. =))))

Bonne Nuit a Tous.

Everyone calls him the gay guy, all thanks to me…lol

ok..to clarify…he is NOT gay and he has a proper name, Charles.

lol…edited some pics for him(as requested-.-), uploading them because i think they are quite nice =)))))))

he’s gonna go on tv soon…look out for him on channel U and channel 5!!

lol…hey ling!! this is for u…a shop facade in KL!

sorry, this friday cannot meet you… (
think in order for us to meet up i must go plan a surprise appearance..lol
like say..hmmmmmmmmm

 dash out from no where when xuwen is driving with u inside!!

haha..ok…i think i freaking him out =p

okay lar…i am just joking (duh-.-)..but really..

I MISS YOU GER!!!!!

sob…i got so much things to tell u!!!

I just uploaded the pics on my previous blog…and i realise it is all so blur!!!!

sad (((((((

click for full view..better res..stupid blog.
if you want any picture can get from me…res not so bad one leh.. ~!@!#@%$%!!!!!

updates.
fell sick finally, after many failed attempt…haven been in good condition for a long time, but didnt really fall sick, only minor symtoms, this time..not very serious also…but has been really hot (blushing all over) for a few days already, doctor says not enough rest, and suffering from exhuastion. today tabulated the timesheet. in between 23rd to 31st, i worked 109hrs in total. thats crazy. i wonder how i did that, and more to come man.

Was online just now to update my blog, yong saw me, and said,

“how you expect people to trust that you are sick and you are online?”

My heart really drop. not the first time already…maybe I should leave soon.
I wanted to go back work tmr, but i really want to have a good rest, i am really feeling unwell, but all they thought is i am feigning sick. i have my limits..i am not a robot…why other people don’t get this treatment?? i work as hard or even harder than them, but they always find faults in me…

I am really going to think over. I tried my best..really, if i were to go any further…I really gonna sacrifice my life to this job…i need my life.

ok..I shall stop here about work. making me soooo depress.

hmmm..friends.

haven been catching up with many recently…
i miss my boobie, tiffy, linda,chaos babes, twinkle gurl, JL and gang,marcus..bla bla bla…many many many…most of the time(which is very little) when i am free..they are not… (((

I WANT MY FRIENDS!!

Though most of them are not quite reachable…some did something really sweet things that really warms my heart…

to bring me vids of fireworks at my most vulnarable times…i was really damn touched caaannnn!!

I was really touched, it’s been long since someone had done such sweet things..

THANK YOU CHARLES!! I REALLY APPRECIATE THAT!!

btw..i finally agree to be richard’s partner for his commission ball…it was a struggle..but he ask me for 3 months le…i also paiseh…since he so sincere then..okay lor…he is my good pal ma…

this is a sneak preview of my “not glam at all” look for that day…

I lurrrvvveee the dress!!! he paid for it…but i think i will return him the $$ after i get my pay…not cheap…but very nice…ermm not in a glam way tho…but..c’mon…thats ME..i hate long gowns…ugly i feel…this is of linen material and is really comfy and simple ))))
(this part of the blog look so much like i just want to put this pic up..but..wadever…thats the fact..lol..i really love the dress and heels!!)

okay…ending here…head spinning.

((
nights world.

Haven really got time to upload the pics i have taken..this is only part of it…didnt take much also actually, was trap in jam half of the time there…

and patheticly..I  have free time to upload these now because i am sick! -_-

 just to share some things i captured there…with my k800i (don’t say it is an old phone ahh…this phone is btr than some digi cam, i shall not say which 1..=p)

Enjoy.